MARCH 2010 - FINALLY
It has taken me thirty plus years to finally allow myself to step forward and take my rightful place in my tribe of Fibre Artists. Life has been a complex dance of two steps ahead; yet my creative spirit wants to back-step to the simpler life of full on creativity, and now that time is mine.
What takes us so long to get to realize our dreams? Ambition, goals, dissatisfaction, unhappiness, business, self consciousness, or just plain fear of accomplishment. Choose one, they all have presented themselves in one way or another to me. I prefer to think that being a working mother was the main reason, but I know I added a career outside of home into the sacred mix of raising a family.
When I look back I fondly recall that the happiest year of my life was the one I had when I was able to take one year off to be with my beautiful baby daughter and my ten year old son. On her first birthday my boss hired a Nanny so that I would return to being his full time assistant. Life was never the same after that. Now that wonderful daughter is a career woman of her own making and now has limited time for her mother. Perhaps a bit of pay back or the harsh reality of expectations of women who work to contribute to the family income.
Now I am in the final day of organizing my beautiful studio, which I must travel 15 feet to each morning with my favourite ceramic mug filled with Chai tea, turning on the light, nudging the computer to offer up the morning dispatches from my friends and there sitting against a most wonderful view of Sechelt Inlet is my floor loom awaiting the shuttle to be thrown through the beautiful warp threads of another blanket for my Beach House Collection. My very lovely doberman pincher Bronwyn faithfully follows me for a quiet day on her comfy bed at the side of my loom. It is hard right now for me to step into this role of Weaver/Fibre Artist as it has been so long coming that it is intimidating to seize this new role and bring my pent up passion for creativity into being. Nothing can hold me back now, my dream time has come.